Below are the 4 most recent journal entries recorded in goldcoastpunx's LiveJournal:

Monday, June 4th, 2007
11:47 am	Wow... i'm actually proud of myself! So i haven't written in this thing for a long time... i seem to rather keep my problems locked up inside. Anywayz... for the last 2 weeks i've stated lifting weights... first i was on 2kg (plus bar) for each arm and now i'm up to 4kg (plus bar). I've been doing them in sets of 4 and today i did 12 on each arm in all 4 sets!! I'm so proud of myself! i'm getting stronger and stronger. Bobby already wants to put me up a weight! From today and on i think i'll keep this as a weights diary... just for awhile anyway to keep track of what i'm doing. Here's what i've done so far... Date/Day......Set One.....Set Two..Set Three..Set Four........Weight Mon 21 May.......7...........5.........5.........3..........2kg Plus Bar Tues 22 May...... 7...........7.........6.........5..........2kg Plus Bar Wed 23 May.......7...........7.........7.........6..........2kg Plus Bar Thurs 24 May....12..........12........12........12..........2kg Plus Bar Fri 25 May........12..........12........12........12..........2kg Plus Bar Sat 26 May......Break.......Break.....Break.....Break.........Break Sun 27 May.....Break.......Break.....Break.....Break.........Break Mon 28 May....Sore Leg....Sore Leg..Sore Leg..Sore Leg......Sore Leg Tues 29 May...Bobby Sick.Bobby Sick.Bobby Sick.Bobby Sick...Bobby Sick Wed 30 May.......3...........5.........5.........5..........4kg Plus Bar Thurs 31 May......7...........5.........5.........4..........4kg Plus Bar Fri 1 June........Break.......Break.....Break.....Break.........Break Sat 2 June........Break.......Break.....Break.....Break.........Break Sun 3 June........Break.......Break.....Break.....Break.........Break Mon 4 June.......12..........12........12........12..........4kg Plus Bar So yeah... i think tonight i'm starting boxing... We bought some focus pads so Bobby's going to hold them and i'm going to punch... he might even have a go punching too! So hopefully this will all help me get fit and lose weight. Current Mood: impressed (Comment on this)
Wednesday, October 11th, 2006
6:18 am	About Me Thing [ ] I am shorter than 5'4". [x] I think I'm ugly sometimes. [x] I have many scars. [ ] I tan easily. [x] I wish my hair was a different color. [x] I have friends who have never seen my natural hair color. [ ] I have a tattoo. [x] I am self-conscious about my appearance [ ] I have/I've had braces. [ ] I wear glasses. [ ] I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. [x] I've been told I'm attractive by a complete stranger. [x] I have more than 2 piercings. [x] I have piercings in places besides my ears. [x] I have freckles. Family/Home Life [x] I've sworn at my parents. [x] I've run away from home. [ ] I've been kicked out of the house. [ ] My biological parents are together. [ ] I have a sibling less than one year old. [ ] I want to have kids someday. [ ] I've had children. [ ] I've lost a child. School/Work [ ] I'm in school. [ ] I have a job. [x] I've fallen asleep at work/school. [ ] I almost always do my homework. [x] I've missed a week or more of school. [ ] I've been on the Honor Roll within the last 2 years. [ ] I failed more than 1 class last year. [ ] I've stolen something from my job. [x] I've been fired. Embarrassment [ ] I've slipped out a "lol" in a spoken conversation. [x] Disney movies still make me cry. [ ] I've peed from laughing. [x] I've snorted while laughing. [x] I've laughed so hard I've cried. [x] I've glued my hand to something. [x] I've had my pants rip in public Health [ ] I was born with a disease/impairment. [ ] I've gotten stitches/staples. [ ] I've broken a bone. [x] I've had my tonsils removed. [x] I've sat in a doctors office/emergency room with a friend. [ ] I've had my wisdom teeth removed. [ ] I had a serious surgery. [x] I've had chicken pox. Traveling [x] I've driven over 200 miles in one day. [x] I've been on a plane. [ ] I've been to Canada. [ ] I've been to Mexico. [ ] I've been to Niagara Falls. [ ] I've been to Japan. [ ] I've celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans. [ ] I've been to Europe. [ ] I've been to Africa. Experiences [x] I've gotten lost in my city. [x] I've seen a shooting star. [x] I've wished on a shooting star. [ ] I've seen a meteor shower. [ ] I've gone out in public in my pajamas. [x] I've pushed all the buttons on an elevator. [x] I've kicked a guy where it hurts. [x] I've been to a casino. [ ] I've been skydiving. [ ] I've gone skinny dipping. [ ] I've played spin the bottle. [ ] I've drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour. [ ] I've crashed a car. [x] I've been skiing. [x] I've been in a play. [x] I've met someone in person from myspace. [ ] I've caught a snowflake on my tongue. [ ] I've seen the Northern lights. [ ] I've sat on a roof top at night. [ ] I've played chicken. [x] I've played a prank on someone. [x] I've ridden in a taxi. [x] I've seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show. [x] I've eaten sushi. [ ] I've been snowboarding. Relationships [ ] I'm single. [x] I'm in a relationship. [ ] I'm engaged. [ ] I'm married. [ ] I've gone on a blind date. [x] I've been the dumpee more than the dumper. [x] I miss someone right now. [x] I have a fear of abandonment. [ ] I've gotten divorced. [x] I've had feelings for someone who didn't have them back. [x] I've told someone I loved them when I didn't. [ ] I've told someone I didn't love them when I did. [ ] I've kept something from a past relationship. Sexuality [ ] I've had a crush on someone of the same sex. [ ] I've had a crush on a teacher. [x] I am a cuddler. [ ] I've been kissed in the rain. [x] I've hugged a stranger. [x] I have kissed a stranger. Honesty/Crime [x] I've done something I promised someone else I wouldn't [x] I've done something I promised myself I wouldn't. [x] I've snuck out of my house. [x] I have lied to my parents about where I am. [x] I am keeping a secret from the world. [x] I've cheated while playing a game. [x] I've cheated on a test. [ ] I've run a red light. [x] I've been suspended from school. [ ] I've witnessed a crime. [ ] I've been in a fist fight. [ ] I've been arrested. Drugs/Alcohol [x] I've consumed alcohol. [x] I regularly drink. [ ] I've passed out from drinking. [ ] I have passed out drunk at least once in the past 6 months. [x] I've smoked weed [ ] I've taken painkillers when I didn't need them. [ ] I've eaten shrooms. [ ] I've popped E. [ ] I've inhaled Nitrous. [ ] I've done hard drugs. [x] I have cough drops when I'm not sick. [ ] I can't swallow pills. [ ] I can swallow about 5 pills at a time no problem. [x] I have been diagnosed with clinical depression. [ ] I have been diagnosed with one or more anxiety disorder. [x] I shut others out when I'm depressed. [x] I take anti-depressants. [ ] I'm anorexic or bulimic. [x] I've slept an entire day when I didn't need it. [x] I've hurt myself on purpose. [x] I'm addicted to self harm. [x] I've woken up crying. Death and Suicide [x] I'm afraid of dying. [x] I hate funerals. [ ] I've seen someone dying. [x] Someone close to me has attempted suicide. [ ] Someone close to me has committed suicide. [ ] I've planned my own suicide. [x] I've attempted suicide. [ ] I've written a eulogy for myself. Materialism [x] I own over 5 rap CDs. (how embarrasing. haha) [ ] I own an iPod or MP3 player. [ ] I have an unhealthy obsession with anime/manga. [ ] I own multiple designer purses, costing over $100 a piece. [ ] I own something from Hot Topic. [ ] I own something from Pac Sun. [ ] I collect comic books. [ ] I own something from The Gap. [x] I own something I got on e-bay. [ ] I own something from Abercrombie. Random [ ] I can sing well. [ ] I've stolen a tray from a fast food restaurant. [ ] I open up to others easily. [x] I watch the news. [ ] I don't kill bugs. [ ] I hate hearing songs that sacrifice meaning for the sake of being able to rhyme. [x] I curse regularly. [ ] I sing in the shower. [ ] I am a morning person. [ ] I paid for my cell phone ring tone. [ ] I'm a snob about grammar. [ ] I am a sports fanatic. [x] I twirl my hair. [ ] I have "x"s in my screen name. [ ] I love being neat. [ ] I love Spam. [ ] I've copied more than 30 CD's in a day. [x] I bake well. [ ] My favorite color is either white, yellow, pink, red or blue. [ ] I've worn pajamas to school. [ ] I like Martha Stewart. [ ] I know how to shoot a gun. [ ] I am in love with love. [ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS... [x] I laugh at my own jokes. [x] I eat fast food weekly. [x] I believe in ghosts. [ ] I am online 24/7, even as an away message. [ ] I've not turned anything in and still got an A in a certain class. [x] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room. [x] I am really ticklish. [x] I love white chocolate. [ ] I bite my nails. [x] I play video games. [x] I'm good at remembering faces. [ ] I'm good at remembering names. [x] I'm good at remembering dates. [x] I have no idea what I want to do for the rest of my life. [x] all of those are answered honestly Current Mood: bored (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, September 5th, 2006
12:02 pm	Emotional Breakdown I'm fat... and don't say i'm not. i knew i was fat but i didn't know how fat. I weigh 82 kilos. i used to weigh about 57 and i was still losing it. i can't stop crying i don't want to be fat. i feel disgusting and ugly. i wanna cut myself so bad but if i do Bobby will leave me.. i don't care what anyone says you can call me emo if you want... i used to cut myself nearly every 2 days.. it's a serious problem. i hate feeling like this. you're probably thinking, big deal, you're fat, get over it. but i can't.. it's hard for me. i've been depressed for years since i was 15 or 16. i quit school cuz it was stressing me out and that led to depression. after awhile i barely left the house. i'd only go out to go to centrelink or doctor appointments and grocery shopping with mum only cuz she's not supposed to lift things. i think thats happening again.. i don't want people to see me. i never thought i'd end up being the fat chick of the group. i hate it so much. soon enough Bobby will think i'm disgusting too and leave me... i don't want to lose him. he means everything to me Current Mood: depressed (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, September 4th, 2006
7:37 pm	Steve Irwin Has Died BRISBANE, Australia - Steve Irwin, the hugely popular Australian television personality and environmentalist known as the "Crocodile Hunter," was killed Monday by a stingray during a diving expedition. He was 44. Irwin was filming an underwater documentary on the Great Barrier Reef in northeastern Queensland state when he was stung, Sydney's The Daily Telegraph newspaper reported on its Web site. He collapsed at Batt Reef, near Low Isle and the resort town of Port Douglas, Queensland state police said in a statement. Port Douglas is about 1,260 miles north of Brisbane, the state capital. A rescue helicopter rushed to the scene but Irwin had died, the statement said. Queensland ambulance service spokesman Bob Hamil confirmed that a diver had been killed by a stingray off Lowe Isles Reef and said cause of death appeared to be a "stingray strike to the chest." Irwin was famous for his enthusiasm for wildlife and his catchword "Crikey!" in his television program "Crocodile Hunter," which was first broadcast in Australia in 1992 and has aired around the world on the Discovery channel. He rode his image into a feature film, and developed the Australia Zoo as a tourist attraction. Irwin had received some negative publicity in recent years. In January 2004, he stunned onlookers at the Australia Zoo reptile park by carrying his month-old son into a crocodile pen during a wildlife show. He tucked the infant under one arm while tossing the 13-foot reptile a piece of meat with the other. Authorities declined to charge Irwin for violating safety regulations. Later that year, he was accused of getting too close to penguins, a seal and humpback whales in Antarctica while making a documentary. Irwin denied any wrongdoing, and an Australian Environment Department investigation recommended no action be taken. Irwin was also seen as a vocal critic of wildlife hunts in Australia. The federal government recently dropped plans to allow crocodile safaris for wealthy tourists in the Northern Territory following his vehement objections. Irwin told the Australian television program "A Current Affair" that "killing one of our beautiful animals in the name of trophy hunting will have a very negative impact on tourism, which scares the living daylights out of me." He is survived by his American wife Terri, from Eugene, Ore., and their daughter Bindi Sue, 8, and son Bob, who will turn 3 in December. Foreign Minister Alexander Downer, who used a photograph of his family at Australia Zoo for his official Christmas card last year, hailed Irwin for his work in promoting Australia through projects such as "G'Day LA," an Australian tourism and trade promotion week in Los Angeles in January. "The minister knew him, was fond of him and was very, very appreciative of all the work he'd done to promote Australia overseas," Downer's spokesman Tony Parkinson said. Stingrays have flat bodies and tails with serrated spines, which contain venom and can cause cuts and puncture wounds. The creatures are not aggressive and injury usually occurs when a swimmer or diver accidentally steps on one. Current Mood: sad (Comment on this)